sometimes i'm not quite sure how to explain to team sports players what it means to only have one go at a competition, one time by yourself and that's it. you train an entire year or two just for that one. and if you crash, its gone. like that. i miss that moment when you stand on the tramp and everything just fades away. i miss competing. everytime i watch gymnastics, figure skating or one of e performing sports, i miss that feeling.